Wednesday, October 12, 2005

suburban shaman.

i was challenged recently by a post on another site, www.timboucher.com whereby a comment was put forward regarding he process by which one becomes a shaman. i have used the term shaman to characterise myself, not in a boasting fashion, but merely to describe effectively the process of what i do. the role of shaman in the community is the closest description to what i do that i`ve ever found, so i use the term to describe myself.
the comment in question suggested that unless you`ve been attacked by a spirit and taken within an inch of death then you can`t claim to be a shaman. i see the line of reasoning that the commentor was using to describe the developement of the shamanic soul but i disagreed as to his conclusions.
my shamanic developement contained visions, energy from outside normal consciousness, visitations, coincedences, magical and ecstatic states that lasted for days, unconscious knowledge about people and events and the ability to gain hidden knowledge through intiutive use of the tarot. none of these events killed me or made me dangerously ill. i questioned my sanity on occasion but i`ve got used to that aspect of life now and avoid confrontations with dogmatic processes and people.
i am a suburban shaman, versed in the relationship with the occult nature of our existance and the need for all of us to negotiate the acceptance of divinity within us as our robot programming wears off. we all get the transmissions. some of us need a translation.

6 comments:

anu said...

Wow Dr, this is so fascinating.

If you feel like it and can share could you write your experiences about your shamanic development - (visions, energy from outside normal consciousness, visitations, coincedences, magical and ecstatic states that lasted for days, unconscious knowledge about people and events and the ability to gain hidden knowledge through intiutive use of the tarot)

This is so amazing Dr.

anu said...

Wow Dr, this is so fascinating.

If you feel like it and can share could you write your experiences about your shamanic development - (visions, energy from outside normal consciousness, visitations, coincedences, magical and ecstatic states that lasted for days, unconscious knowledge about people and events and the ability to gain hidden knowledge through intiutive use of the tarot)

This is so amazing Dr.

dr.alistair said...

aha! i am being held to statements i made in the past........good.
i have had several visionary experiences in my life, situations that have tested my beliefs regarding "reality".
briefly;
i experienced a beam of pure white light that came from the horizon, as i lay in bed one morning, and hit me in the forehead. i seemed to be frozen but didn`t struggle.......instead i went to sleep.

one summer night i saw a pinkish light in the sky that grew to cover the whole sky, spreading out from a central point. it seemed that i was in a dream state. my dad and brother were there with me too, but have no recollection of the event.

i have never felt that i have been abducted, visited by angels or am a greater being than anyone else because of these experiences. i think many people have odd experiences but don`t validate them and integrate them as real in any way so they tend to fade and be forgotten. there have been a few other odd things that have happened like flying over my dads head on a carpet when i was a child and screaming for him......but he couldn`t hear me. i flew out the window of the upstairs bathroom and distinctly remember the bricks and the drainpipe on the outside of the house as if it was real.
who can say what these memories were. dreams? insights? i don`t demand answers.......i just accept the experiences as perceptually valid. that is i know that i experienced the events.
i hear that others have had similar experiences too.

anu said...

Wow. How lovely!! They are all real. But i see how you state them so casually, without attaching any special importance to them. Normally people are so eager to make themselves special so that they stand apart from others. You are so different Dr.

I have had 3 experiences at the hospital while taking dialysis when my bed shook so violently that i thought the needles in my arm would fall off. It was so scary i was screaming but noone heard me at all. And in all the three, when the nurse would touch me to remove my blood pressure, i would come into this world back. Till then according to others, i was asleep but i know and could narrate exactly what they were all doing.

In one such experience, i raised my hand and then saw below my other two hands were like they were dead. I could not feel them at all. It felt like i had come out of my body.

In one another experience, some person (not in human form, dont know what form, i could just feel the energy)I assumed it was a male becoz i was dreaming an unknown man in my mind. So, this person came to me and sat at my bed (again this was during dialysis) and told me i called for him. He was very kind and nice. And he was lifting my feet of the ground. And i kept telling him, others will be thinking i am crazy if they see my feet being lifted off the dialysis bed hanging in the air. As this man was invisible. But he just continued and then suddenly i snapped out of it.

How magical and mystical these feel right?

dr.alistair said...

we seek validation for the feelings we have in our lives. we fall down and it hurts. the comfort we feel when someone understands what we are feeling is powerful and healing.
when we have experiences of the mystical variety and we go for common validation and we don`t get it......a part of us splits off and searches for meaning elsewhere, or the experience and the ability to experience at that level diminishes and/or disappears completely.
every now and then these experiences return, and in a weak mind can cause mental illness of a variety of types.
if you tell your psychiatrist you are having these experiences he will medicate you and the experiences will go away.........problem solved.
if you tell me i will prepare you for the journey called the rest of your life.
we are not special....we are amazing.......we are human.
we are waking up.
the shaman has experienced and validated and integrated these types of experience into away of life.
the shaman can help you to live on purpose.
just remember that the majority of the people you come into contact with are deep asleep. they were told to by thier parents, teachers, doctors and priests.
some just pretended to close thier eyes and kept listening.
just remember the next time a little boy or girl comes to you with a magical dream. listen, understand and validae thier experience. you don`t have to tell them what it is...... we don`t know that. all we know is that this is what humans do. it`s just another thing.

anu said...

Dr you are so amazing! Your words touch my heart. How beautifully you have explained this to me.

I love these experiences. I feel empowered by them. Even merely listening to what your experiences charges me up. I never feel it to be strange or weird. I wish i could see and do more in that area.

Since the last one month, you know Dr, i have been dreaming every night. I think these are lucid dreams. Becoz i am so sure this is happennign to me, when i wake up i cannot remember to have slept. Infact i remember so many of the dreams, every day i have a new one that i cannot keep count of it. And the dreams are all about people i meet and see in real life and sometimes about people who are dead but that is rare. Last week i remember i was reading heidi and i had barely slept for 2 hours, i got up so refreshed becoz i dreamt i was in the swiss alps.

One month ago i was meditating every day for 15 mts to connect to my spiritual guide. After two continuous days of meditation i felt my head turn from center to left and then from left to right during the meditation. I felt like someone had entered me and he / she was looking around which is how my head was turning. My eyes were closed though. I was not scared Dr. I was so thrilled that i called for him and he came. It did not go any further becoz i stopped the 15mt meditation becoz i fall asleep when i reach home.

You are so right Dr, when you say that my psychatrist would be so shocked. WHen i told him about my eagerness to connect with my spiritual guides he stared at me as if i was a ghost. He told me let us analyse the human problems first. And clearly indicated that he does not want to go there.

I am truely delighted to connect to you in this regard. And thank you for this statement:
if you tell me i will prepare you for the journey called the rest of your life.

Merely reading this gives me so much encouragement and comfort of being understood.

And yes i will be kind to children who see this magical world all the time. My 7month old nephew probably sees all this when he smiles in his sleep and jumps and dives to catch the sunbeams in his hands.:))