the pictures in your head.

did you know you can change them?

did you know you can put different one`s up there?

really exciting ones..........

when was the last time you did that?


thrilled the shit out of yourself.........for no reason other than it felt great.


choose a picture or a movie of something that cranks you up. a memory of something you did or experienced that changed your state to pure pleasure. move the image around and change the lighting and the colours and notice how the changes make you feel and follow the direction that amplifies the state you feel.......

now double the sensation by choosing to now.


if you have got this far in the practice you must realise that we can do this any time we wish to just by imagining the situation as you just did.

the feelings you come away with can now be used to drive the next thing you want to do in your day.

a question of conscience.

guilt. the drug of choice for the sea of religious dogma that we are afloat in. when we are conditioned to feeling responsible for the plight of others.......less fortunate than us or not, then we are prey to manipulation by religion and corporations and government.

i make no apologies for mixing metaphors to get a point across. conscience is a useless emotion.

conscience is a tool applied by the media to control out thinking. there are those who will now go inside and say to themselves that without some form of control that there would be chaos and people would be deciding what they wanted to do and to hell with what others think. people do that anyway, and use guilt to control others and manipulate and take what they want.......

that`s what people do.

it`s just a question of who want`s to be in control of what.

me, i want to be able to make clear decisions about what`s best for me and not have to wade through endless hours of conjecture about the cure for this and the solution to that or the reason why things went to shit somewhere or la-la-la............

turn the tv off. stop reading the newspaper and go for a walk. tell your kids you love them and decide what you want to do with your life and what you want to be involved in by adressing the pictures in your head in a meaningful way.............maybe for the first time in your life.

that`s what it means to take responsibility.

and smile for fuck`s sake. this isn`t a funeral.

alignment with desires.

we exist in something. inside of what we percieve as clearly defined reality. inside of this space and time things operate within certain guidelines. all of the stuff here existed in the consciousness of people before we saw it in reality.
it came from somewhere else and appeared here.

how.

we think it. and it appears.

even science is begining to begrudgingly say that things seem to operate this way.

what we have and what we feel is driven by what we think will happen. we have thoughts and we focus on them then things happen because we acted on our feelings.

so the things here are made out of feelings.

our intentions.

so our intentions pull material things out of somewhere else and into physical reality.

sounds like magic.


and science agrees.

cool.

a disconnection.......

i have noticed a seperation in thought between those who characterise themselves as spiritual or following a spiritual path, and those who follow a path of afluence.

interesting.

i see the creative act of abundance and simply earning money as spiritual acts. we live in a society and a global humanity interacting through the means of materials and money. all that we do is represented by the accumilation of money and possessions.

why is that wrong?

granted, what we choose to do with those things can lead to problems.......but that`s the role of education, to teach responsible wealth and responsible aquisition.

i see a great crime in plainly conditioning the minds of people to think that money and possessions are somehow wrong. that`s a recipe for disaster. the disaster comes in the form of resentment toward those who can create joyfully and out of a sense of abundnce in all things. that form of thinking deprives people the ablity to live the life they want.

it`s as if there is only so much to go round, in the eyes of some. and where does that thinking come from? that`s as defeating as earning money for the sake of earning money.......like pouring yet another bucket of water into an ocean.

see the astonishing beauty in things and the excitement of dreaming with intent about doing what you want in life and see yourself doing those things now and be grateful knowing that this vision will bring you into alignment with your desires.

what cost?

i think that we cannot risk thinking that our thoughts don`t effect reality. there are those who laugh at the idea that a thought creates an energy wave that creates the thing that thinking saw. these people consume the bad news as entertainment and proof that thier ideas about reality are correct.

i can`t afford to live with the risk that that kind of thinking is wrong.

so the no cost solution is to just behave as if our thoughts do create a wave of energy that go out and bring back the things we want in our lives.

the negative thinking people, or those who deny that thinking creates anything, are proving me correct by default. all of the thoughts about bills and failures and reversals of fortune and accidents surround people who dwell upon them...........in ways that ensure they will get what they focus on.


but they can`t for a minute entertain the thought that the positive might work too. then things wouldn`t be so hard and they`d have less to complain about. some get evangelistic about how hard it is to do this or that and then prove it.

so whatever you believe you are right. the mind creates the proof for whatever you choose to see.


that`s whay i can`t afford not to see the positive.

positive and negative thoughts.

i am criticised occasionally for my views on postive vs. negative thoughts. i promote good feelings for no reason and so there are those who feel that i`m merely avoiding all that is negative in life.

i`m not.

i`m merely saying that to focus on the negative is to attract more.

so don`t do it.


what you focus on sends energy of attraction so that what you focus on comes into your life.


there plenty of others caring for the negative, so it`s well taken care of. if you worry about such things.

me, i`m interested in seeing health and wealth and happiness for myself and those i care about and so i talk about positive energy that goes out and attracts more as we hold that picture of what we want in our minds.


really look at what you focus on daily. be honest with yourself. is what you focus on coming back multipied?


i know it is at this end, and i`m no different than anyone else. what i look at and what i tell myself about those images in my mind are exactly what my life has emerged as.

unconditional love.

i haven`t written much about this for some time as i have been focusing of visualisation, but as i have said so many times elsewhere, unconditional love for the self is the state where everything becomes possible. the joy, the happiness, the calm, the reassurance. it all comes from a state of unconditional love the self.

this state is a self-referencing mechanism which makes it impossible to begin on a path of harm. you just let those ideas and feelings go and wait for better ones to arrive.

no matter how long that takes.

did you get that?

no matter how long it takes.

sometimes that means forever.

which means that some forms of thinking have to be left behind. especially the one`s that make you do things that will lead to harming yourself or others.

it seems like such an easy thing to do.........but it forces you to take responsibility for your own care..........and to let things leave your life that are going to cause you harm.

how do you know the difference?

tell yourself over and over how much you love yourself. this may be difficult at times, but keep going. eventually you will mean it, i promise. once you start meaning it you will be able to discern so much that seemed invisible before. your whole life will change. some things will come into focus and some things will fade completely. that`s what love is. the creator at work.

england.

a nice crisp sunday morning in late october. the sun is out and the wind has died down. a perfect morning for a game of football. and after eight weeks my broken ankle has healed and i am free to run once again. just another thing to be grateful for.

the three musketeers.

what better way to celebrate the cold but with a run in the park with friends..............

england 5 canada 1, for those who keep score.

a reminder.

we are made up of what we see, in our mind`s eye, and what we talk about, inside our heads.

everything else proceeds from there.

we began doing this, this time, the moment we were born. many of the ideas, feelings, concepts and certainly outcomes come from a pre-literate time in our lives. a time before words.

this is why it is important from now on to watch what you say and what you see in your mind`s eye. choose what you want to see and hear and allow those images to lead you forward each day.

over the next few days and weeks and months these images will create a reality for you that you want.

it`s happening now anyway. it always has. it`s the way things work.

why not shape things the way you want?

the answer to that question precisely describes your reality and predicts your future.

the wolf.

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as i continue to read this remarkable tale i am reminded of an experience i had as a teenager. i was walking home from a girlfriend`s house one night late. it was one of those magical deep winter nights that one has to experience firsthand to believe. the snow was deep and the air was crisp and fresh and the sky was alive with stars so bright and shining as to be alive. i had left her house and her love for fear that her parents would discover us and was still warm with our passions as i set out across the fields. i had nothing but my jeans, boots and a t-shirt and an old army coat that i had brought from england to fend off the cold. as i walked my persective switched for a moment or so and burned an image into my mind so deeply that i can see it now as i type.

i could see myself from outside my body as i plowed through the knee deep snow..........my hair blowing back as i stepped and my coat open against the cold defiantly...........

then as suddenly i was back, but this time, remarkably, i was a wolf seeing and smelling and feeling a million times more intensely than i did moments before. i knew for that instant what it was like existing as a wild dog.

all three perspectives then tumbled about in my consciousness as i continued to walk. no words could describe what had happened in rational terms and they never have since. only the shamans have spoken of such things.

since then i have had similar experiences with other animal energy. the red-tail hawk flying high above the hydro poles along the side of the highway spoke words in my mind...........hunt and kill.

that`s all he knew.

the squirrel

he sat there on the sidewalk perfectly still, as if he was looking at something just across the road. i noticed him as i rode by on my bike and gave him a wide berth so as not to startle him. he was suprisingly calm as i passed but i kept pressing on against the rain and wind, eager to get home and warm. i thought it a little odd the way he was stretched out like a resting dog front and back paws pushed out from his body with his belly flat on the ground but i kept pedalling.

he was there the next day as i rode by, still in the same position. i realised then that he`d died as he lay there, held in his last pose as his spirit left.

i see him there when i pass now and his body is comfort to me as i ride because i realise that his essence is long gone and that all that remains is what struggled here in material form. his spirit and industrious squirrel joy have gone on to some other plane of experience that we can only imagine.

so it is with us isn`t it? we are born, we experience stuff and then we move on. the spirit remains though. i`m convinced of that now. i have had flashes and glimpses and feelings of too many other planes of experience and consciousness to believe for one instant that this is all that there is.

and to my little squirrel friend i say, happy journeys......... wherever you are.

yves commented recently and has me thinking. he said;

"There is no problem with this idea of spiritual as you have expressed it. The problems come from everyone's attempt to hijack our feelings in order to influence us. Religion, politics, advertising and the tangled web of civilisation try to hijack our feelings, just as pornography tries to hitch a ride on our sexuality."

this everyone that he refers to begins with the media. the pictures we are fed become our reality. we then cut and paste these images together for our own pleasure. the problem becomes when we make real people into pictures and try to combine the pictures with pictures of other elements of our lives and then close the book, as if to trap the images for ever like so many snapshots, to only open the book occasionally when we feel like it.

example; i dated a woman recently and was enchanted by her east indian beauty and her joyful attitude. we spent nearly five hours talking and laughing and i am planning to repeat the experience soon. she told me about a man she dated who seemed nice and they went out a few times. on the third date he wanted to show her something. he took her to a house and asked her if she liked it. she was impressed but he then asked if she would be happy there........after three dates. she was very troubled by that and asked me what i thought about what had happened in his mind.
my answer was that he had taken a snapshot of her, a snapshot of the house, and a snapshot of the life he saw for them and then tried to put them together with her permission into a scrapbook and then closed the lid.

it`s quite a common practice, and quite deadly.

it leads to people being put into moulds that trap them. some are willing to go into the picture at least for a while, if they believe that`s what they want. but it`s only a picture. it doesn`t move and flow and grow and feel and love and laugh and age and what if we want to have some human experiences and someone has closed the book on the pictures?

we all need new pictures every day. it`s hard at first, but then it becomes the only way. new ways of seeing the same familiar things.

what happens then is that it`s like falling in love with life each time you open your eyes.

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i am about half way through this book and i would highly recommend it to anyone on a buddhist path or anyone who believes our thoughts effect reality in any way.

i asked what people thought spiritual meant and the universe answered by presenting me with this book.

goose-bumps.

tulpas.

does anyone have any experiences with such things?

please do tell.

issues...............

my network card issues seem to be resolved now and so i`m optimistic that i can settle back into a routine of posting.

so much has happened in the last few weeks that it is hard to find the words to convey the feelings i`m experiencing right now.

coincedances. sufficient to create goose-bumps.

i realise i`m not being coherent and as i re-read what i just wrote i realise that`s precisely how i feel.

incoherent.

that about sums it up.

when you stop trying to control the universe opens up.

more computrer challenges.

the network card crashed again, so for the forseable future i will be broadcasting intermittantly from alternate ports..........

today i am typing on the chapters book store computer...........


being grateful for the ability to do so.

what does spiritual mean?

what does the word spiritual mean to you........?

i read somewhere the definition of spiritual was "of the spirit." well, thanks webster for that wee tautology. saved you the bother of thinking, didn`t it?

to me, spiritual means feelings. the experience of sensation in reaction to things. blue herons for instance........or the date i had on saturday with the incredibly beautiful west indian girl. or the knowledge that i`m a dynamic part of everything else that is occuring here.

spiritual means that we are a part of this abundance called consciousness that goes on forever, everywhere. with or with out us. now and forever. we can`t stop it if we try........though there are those who manage to cut themselves off from it and sit with thier arms folded in some protest against those who do........


and what`s that all about?

spiritual?

hello again.

my computer network card crashed on thursday and so i have been unable to communicate until the computer is operational once again.

in the meantime the world has kept spinning and games have been won and lost and opinion has continued without me.

now i will join in again without permission or restriction.

this morning i rode to oakville to pick up my now-fixed laptop and on the way back across the bronte creek bridge i decided to stop and enjoy the view.

the bridge crosses the bronte creek about 40 feet from the water and from that height one can see upstream into the bush and into the deepest part of the creek, split in two by a sand bar island. we are past the best of the fall colours but the sun was out and warmth was nice on a windy october day and i watched as a pair of ducks swam together upstream. just then a blue heron rose from the water and up directly toward me, his wings slowly lifting him higher with each graceful flap. he climbed up directly above my head and around and up into the trees on the east bank........i was held breathless as he continued his flight around once again and back over the road behind me and away to the south.

i felt a tear........joy? a connection to this natural scene. a thrill of recognition of myself and the majestic flying dinosaur.

what kind of god are you?

what kind of god are you?

what have you manifest in your life?

is the list of things, people and events and occurances pleasing to you?

if you answered yes to the last question then crank up the gratitude until you are sure you will burst with the love and joy you feel knowing that your life is as rich as you wish................

but if you answered no, then stop putting time, effort and money into thoughts about things you don`t like.

like that........

just stop.

and in place of those thoughts find things to be grateful for and put emphasis on that feeling.
now.
continue.
find where in your body and soul that the feelings of gratitude originate and see if you can make it grow up and out into your entire being. make it so strong a sensation that you could be sure that if someone saw you now they would know what you are thinking and feeling, just by how you appear.

now, isn`t that better than what was happening before.

now. know that if you continue to be grateful and see more of what you do want, you are sending a message to the universe that says "this is what i want from now on".

the universe will now send you these things.

it`s happening now everywhere anyway.

so be careful with that mind. train it to focus on the things you want and they will come to you.