Tuesday, October 30, 2007

the language of licence plates.


well, over time i have noticed a consistancy in types of licence numbers and letter sequences i see as i pedal around this part of the world.

i have a particular affinity for the number 666 and it is suprising the amount of licence plates with that number on them......

even more remarkable considering the sheer number of churches and religious schools we have in this town.

especially presbyterian and baptist.

and most recently a rash of bamk letter sequence on plates wherever i go.

the significance of that is that my initails are amk and the bamk sequence refers to being myself as opposed to acting in some other way to somehow adapt to situations.

pretty much good advice for anyone really, except that it`s directed at me via the licence plate letters.

either that or i`m imagining things.

my kabbalahist friend takes the licence plate thing much further than i do, and gets some pretty freaky messages as a result.

i wonder if madonna looks at licence plates................

is your life coded?

by this i mean are you aware of the patterns and sign-posts that consistantly occur in your conscious awareness?

are there similar themes and characters and events that arise that are obviously part of some plan or scheme?

are there similar conflicts and concerns that appear?

are there coincedances and synchronicities that build up over time?

once you start to become aware of these things you start to recognise a pathway to follow.......or maybe one to avoid.

but certianly signposts are useful guides along the roadway of life.

like this one;

i`m riding last night and thinking about a specific thing and a streetlight blows out as i ride under it.

hmm, i thought, interesting.

i`m riding today in the glorious warm sunny air when i think about the same issue and look up to see a streetlight on in the middle of the day.

now that is what i mean by a signpost.

signals from the universe.

personal preperation.

when my clients book a session for past-life regression i ask them to begin to prepare themselves for the exploration by doing some simple exercises.

firstly i suggest that they begin to be aware of dreams and begin to write them down when they first wake, whether it is the middle of the night or when they are ready to get up in the morning. it is best to write the dream down when it is fresh because even after a few minutes the memories begin to fade. having a pad and pencil beside the bed makes the job easy.

also i suggest that the client take a pen and paper and begin to write words and phrases down that come to mind freely. let the mind run free of judgement and structure in this practice to the point where patterns and themes emerge on thier own.

once the client has an outline of a direction in this free-association practice it can be a focal point for identifying past-life memories that have carried over into this consciousness.

a practice of relaxation, prayer or meditation or yoga is good preparation for the past-life regression it`s self.

the more easily the client can access a relaxed state, the more effectively the regression work can be accomplished, and so any prior work that a client does before the session helps.

i also recommend journaling for becoming aware of themes and patterns in a person`s life.

these self-actualisation techniques are good all-round ways to help the client integrate themselves on a daily basis and is a great way to 'tune-up" the psyche and rise up out of the dull materialistic rat-race that we are all caught in.

themes and patterns are the signposts we have access to in our journey toward the integration and healing of the self. everything suggested here is a way to prepare the consciousness for the exploration of the past-lives in regression that are such a powerful tool for healing.

Monday, October 29, 2007

holy shit.


i bet this guy knows when the machine will become conscious...............

unconditional love for the self.

can you?

do you?

most think that the statement, that you can love yourself unconditionally, is somehow difficult or impossible.

i think i realise why you feel this way.

it`s how you see yourself.

step outside of yourself for a moment or two and see yourself as if you were someone else.

realise that this person is a human being with feelings and hopes and dreams, and that you really desire the best for him.

do you care about what this person thinks and feels?

will you put this person at risk for some reason?

or will you spend some time each day to get to know this person more............?

Sunday, October 28, 2007

and this one........

in a different way.

fall colours.

i love it when something flows out nicely.........

stream of consciousness.

unattached to outcome.

becoming aware of one`s purpose.

just go where the mood dictates.

listen to the voice inside.

the one you have been ignoring for some time now.

the will to control, plan, train and prepare is a move to protect you from pain that you believe you will experience if you don`t prepare and train and control and plan.........


you never had it, nor did you ever have a chance to have it......whatever "having" meant anyway.

so the whole thing has been a waste of time.

Saturday, October 27, 2007

connection to the mystical.

i was reminded today of why we do art.

those of us who can do art of any sort are compelled to return to the process occasionally for a variety of reasons.

the real reason is that it connects us to the mystical.

or should i say it allows us to recognise the connection.

the connection is always there.

and now there are those of you who want to know what the "mystical" is.

that`s what art is for.

do art and discover the connection.

then you will know too, if you don`t already.

(because there are no words to describe it.............)

Friday, October 26, 2007

my birthday.

my birthday was the 26th.

for those keeping score, i turned 47.

i wish to thank those responsible for the gifts they bestowed upon me.

those who gave a handshake and two handed hugs, i thank you.

those who sent e-mails and facebook messages, i thank you.

those who, by thier mere existance and pervasiveness of character were a gift in and of themselves, i thank you.

for those who phoned to wish me many happy returns, i also thank you.

for the girl with no last name.......thanks.

but i reserve my deepest gratitude for the universe and all of whatever the fuck this all is that does all of this astonishing stuff all of the time, not only on my birthday, but every day...........

thank you.

Thursday, October 25, 2007

oh well.


no more controvercial than saying we evolved from monkeys.............

try saying that out loud.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

past lives.


my new blog is dedicated to the issue of past lives and how we have access to such knowledge.

i will be researching for and promoting a lecture series beginning in late november to adress this subject, which has fascinated me my entire life.

Sunday, October 21, 2007

jay weisner.

i have gotten away from research into the illuminati and the templars etc. because, well, there is so much conjecture about all of this stuff but i will say that jay weidner has some interesting viewpoints that i`m glad i have re-aquainted myself with in the last few days.

one of jay`s focal points is the idea that we are heading for some sort of event in 2012. on december 21st to be precise.

i have heard so many takes on what is supposed to happen from different people with apparent insight from ancient scripts, hieroglyphs or myths etc. that i just take it all with a grain of whatever i feel like taking it with.

but jay`s view is slightly different.

he believes that there is going to be a shift in spiritual conciousness in humanity.

other that to say that there is going to have to be if we expect something different to happen here......other than war, crime, violence and other forms of destruction............i tend to like his view.

my belief has always been that when we choose to love ourselves unconditionally then we are incapable of harming others by default.

i have been criticized and laughed at for this view.........

and i can handle that.

but what if there is some single event that is going to mess up our ability to be fuckheads as a race.

i can get behind that.

2012. december 12st.


can`t sleep.

i played soccer for 90 minutes this morning and covered 70 kilometers in two hours on the bike this afternoon, and now i can`t sleep.

i am still buzzing from the visit to toronto.

it really is a beautiful city.

lit up at night and with the cloudless sky filled with stars and a bright half-moon hanging over the cn tower it seems like a magical place of boundless potential.

or maybe i`m still high from the endorphins.

or both.

october 21st.

at 9.00am this morning it was 15 degrees celcius and sunny.

by 3.00pm it was 25 degrees.

at 10.00pm it was still 20.

i can handle this.................

i rode to toronto in late afternoon and got into town by 6.00pm, and after catching a garbage bag in my gears and twisting my chain finally i was glad to get off the bike and sit down for a starbucks on king and bathurst.

it was beautiful to see the city vibrant with people on the streets enjoying summer-like weather this late in the year.

the bars and restaurants were jammed and traffick was heavy.

the more time i spend in t.o. the more i want to live and do business there.

burlington pales in comparison.

though i would probably miss the quiet after a short while gone................

oh well, not decision time yet.

remarkable day though.

oh yeah, and we finished our final soccer game of the outdoor season winning 9-0.


Saturday, October 20, 2007


scientists start with a thesis.

a thesis is a set of ideas and theories laid out with the intent to prove.

we are all scientists in that we have our ideas or pre-suppositions about the way the world is and we go out the door each day prepared to prove our point.

science has held out the idea that we evolved from apes.

science has searched high and low for proof.

a hundred years or so the search has gone on.......and so far; nothing.

but science is a dogged discipline and not willing to quit, presses on, in the belief that one day the missing link will appear.

meanwhile in software developement companies something interesting is happening.

a group of people, who just happen to not be scientists, are discovering a remarkable thing.

the evolution of the ability of a device to um, work better and better all the time.

this device, or devices, is known as software........and is being allowed to run more and more of the systems that our lives depend on.

everything from hydro-electric systems to automobiles to entire manufacturing plants to weapon systems to satellites to your toaster to kids toys to cell phones.

and pretty soon, thanks to bluetooth, more and more of this stuff will become interconnected.

this process of "evolution" will not stop and it will become increasingly more complex and unpredictable.

eventually it won`t matter whether you call it "conscious" or not.

and it won`t be asking your opinion.


this was the view from my balcony last wednesday morning as i prepared to get my morning ride in.
mid-october and the the air was 20 degrees celsius at 8.30am.
i don`t miss winter.

something went click........


and so i accepted the change and dug back into some of my old links and found one of my favorite researchers, cleve backster.

there is an interview above and if you are interested a fair bit of his work on-line.

cleve backster began experimenting with plants and discovered that they respond to external stimulus measurably.

he hooked plants up to an electro-encephalograph and discovered that they would respond to his actions with changes in electro-magnetic energy.

if he went to burn a leaf he would get a spike on the graph paper.

if he thought about burning a leaf he would get a reaction.

and so on.

does this mean that plants are conscious?

i don`t know.

does it mean that we are conscious?

i have my doubts...........

what it means is the humans and plants share in that they and we react consistantly to certain types of external stimulus.

so do computers.

as uncomfortable as this may seem to some.

and computers are evolving, as we know. they are becoming quicker and more efficient and networks are developing to include hardware and software so that it can communicate at a distance.

wi-fi, bluetooth and skype are just a few examples of this evolution at work.

computing devices are slowly integrating from stand-alone devices into portable interactive processors.............with esp.

humans are still driving the bus as we speak and manufacturers are resisting the pressure to integrate services onto thier proprietary devices......but pretty soon we will see big-brain communication in a hand-held format.

a quick browse through wired magazine should be enough to convince you of the evolution, not of humans, but of computers.

Friday, October 19, 2007

80/20 rule.

in engineering terms 20% of the imput creates 80% of the output.

the same can be said for the throughput measurement of groups of people. work groups or sports teams or administrations.

it has been said that the distinction maybe as fine as 95/5 in some cases.

the anylitical question has always been; which 20%?

and the social question has always been; how do we support the other 80%?

the commercial question is how do we eliminate the other 80% (or more.)?

Thursday, October 18, 2007

winning part 7.

what, you thought it was over?

a champion lives every day with the certain knowledge of who he is.

it`s not about one single day or event or moment.

it`s about committment to the self.

every day.

now, today as the fog rolls in like the wild highlands of scotland, i will roll through it.



of the next battle.

Tuesday, October 16, 2007


winners always find a way to win.

through the dissapointment of defeat on the field i am reminded instantly of what is really important.

Saturday, October 13, 2007

winning part 6.

what so you see when you think about winning?

i see the glory of the team getting our hands on the the trophy and holding it up as high as we can.

i know when we arrive tomorrow morning the cup will be there on the table at center awaiting the winners, and i see us being that.


with certainty.

Friday, October 12, 2007

winning part 5

y`know since i began writing this series on winning i made an assumption.

i assumed that you are a winner and that you would understand.

maybe you aren`t.

you might doubt yourself or what i`ve written, or bits of both.

and that`s human nature.

not everyone can win.

but it is a decision.

so know this;

when you decide to be a winner don`t expect others to understand and support and encourage you to get what you want.

unless they know how to win themselves.

winning makes it`s own community.

winnning is an attitude that pervades a group and lifts up and encourages all who wish to compete.

not everyone can win each game, but winners understand this and respect thier adversary as a winner also.

so there are no losers in a game played between those who choose to win.

hence the term immolation.

named after jacques demolay.


we have so much to thank the catholic church for.

the bear must have been well fed.

for some reason blogger decided to add my pictures in reverse order therefore ruining the effect of seeing the bear approach the sled dogs initially, seemingly to attack.
as the pictorial unfolds it is clear that the bear came to play.
apparently the bear returned to the camp to play with the dogs for over a week.
it shows how little we really understand these incredible and yet terrifying creatures.
i find myself enjoying these images over and over.

yahoo search.

in my search for "british high court al gore" i came up with this as the first hit.

the reason i did the search in the first place is that a talk show host was doing an opinion piece on the subject of the recent british high court`s decision to only allow the showing of algore`s movie in schools as long as it was made clear that there are inaccuracies in the information provided in the movie that are substantially misleading.

i was heartened to read that a government cared enough about the minds of it`s children to promote balanced pespectives in science.

it seems that this balance is missing america where radical polarised viewpoints are the norm, not only in the livingrooms ofthe nation, but in the classroom also.




in this article is is suggested that american schools should follow suit.

it is my experience that canadian teachers would resist any suggestion that they should criticise the work of fellow socialists and would virtually choke on any words used to suggest algore could be (gasp) politcally motivated.

in my children`s schools teachers are so busy promoting volunteerism, racial equality and environmentalism that any suggestion that thier new demi-god movie star could be wrong would ensure that a strike would be imminent.......or at the least a work-to-rule or some other form of heel dragging designed to unilaterally set policy.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

winning part 4.

put yourself in the picture.

see yourself accomplishing something.

see what you saw and hear what you heard and feel what you felt as a response when you know that you had succeeded at something, no matter how trivial.

this is your "map of the world" regarding winning.

now, while you still feel this sense of winning, visualise yourself winning the thing you want to win at now.

overlay the sensory model of success you already have generated onto the visual model of winning you have build for the future event.

run this pattern several times until the feelings of victory are absolutely certain in your mind.

continue to do this exercise comfortably throughout your day as you prepare for the competition, noticing how subtle adjustments in how you visualise and re-enforce the feelings change the certainty that you feel.

making pictures larger and brighter and sounds louder and voices more assertive and encouraging amplify this sense of confidence.

get ready to win now.

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

winning part 3.

new boots.

the thrill of a new pair of boots never leaves me. ever since i was a kid i have been thrilled knowing i was going to wear my new boots for the next game.

this game just happens to be the cup final.

funny thing though.

the grey patch on the instep of each boot is a specially coated surface with rubber strips to add grip to the contact area. this is designed to make the ball do things that the goalies aren`t expecting.

this is all well and good but for the fact that when i strike the ball on the run i hit the ball just below the laces on the top of the boot.

not to worry.

it`s going in the net anyway.

the human body is a neuro-chemical factory. each experience we percieve is stored by chemical markers that match receptor sites in the brain.

when we visualise we re-stimulate the receptors by making these chemicals again and re-running the memory.

our emotions re-enforce this process and give us the sensation of cell-phones ringing when they are not.

winning part 2.

quietly sit and relax......allowing yourself the time to close your eyes and remember a time when you performed perfectly.

you remember a time when everything you touched just moved effortlessly, like in a dream.

see what you saw and hear what you heard and notice how that made you feel......now.

recreate that sensation as you see yourself running with the ball and shooting and passing and getting into position to attack and to defend.

the feeling will come as you do this and you will find yourself re-creating the precise physiological sensations that you felt then and you will be in the optimum state to re-create the physical motions as you performed them then.

we have all done this exercise from time to time by accident or otherwise and have re-experienced the event as if was actually happening now.

all of the physiological markers of actual experience are there, the increased heart-rate, the sweaty palms, the dialated pupils and the flushed skin. some even get goose bumps.......you can if you do it right.

how would you prefer to be feeling before the next game, excited or in fear?

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

winning part 1.

on sunday we are in the league cup final.

in the big picture it`s a small thing, but for 22 soccer players it will become more and more important as sunday draws near.

with each day the focus will become sharper and preperations will become more detailed.

each day until then i will post some ideas and methods that i use to prepare for things like this.

the methods are the same for business meetings, sales pitches, negotiations, preparing to go to the gym and of course sports.

today i will do some visualisation exercises, some bike riding (30 km.) and a visit to the gym to focus on core strength, lateral movement and identifying niggles from the strain of back-to-back games on the week-end.

do all senior athletes prepare like this?


does it make a difference?


why don`t all the senior athletes train this way?

no time. lack of committment. lack of understanding of the advantages of such preperation.

Sunday, October 07, 2007

three beautiful things.

playing the girls soccer team and losing........and playing with a bunch of guys who can deal with it. (for the most part anyway.)

being able to play soccer comfortably outdoors in october.

spending thanksgiving with my children.


the mounting series of connected events that have been accumilating recently in your life have been due to the fact that you are becoming self-aware.

not just feeling things and being aware of internal sensations, but feeling a connectedness to the universe.....every person, place and thing in the universe.

this recognition creates a sensitivity to subtle events and expressions and makes us aware of a word or two from a child that relates to something that we were just thinking or the appearance of the same object repeatedly in a short space of time.

(a short space of time.........)

seeing the sunrise the other morning was a cause/effect of the emotional compression i had been experiencing for the past few weeks.

the cause/effect of that act was more of the joy i had discovered that i could experience when i chose to.

and so the coincedances/synchronicities persist.

Saturday, October 06, 2007


it was, after all, the perfect pass.


in conversation recently a woman said that hard-core pornography is hostile and degrades women.

i agree. it does.

but it also empowers men and women to thier own pre-suppositions about the opposite sex.

"men are all pigs" for instance.

we`ve all heard this one at one time or another, and yet not only don`t we have the intellectual tools to defend ourselves in such an arguement but it`s inacurate.

all men are not pigs.

we are characterised as pigs for having desires that are entirely natural, and while they may be inappropriately displayed at times, these desires are entirely welcomed when and if a woman so wishes.

and make no mistake, women decide.

pornography isn`t so much an action as a re-action.

and the part about objectifying women.........

that`s what women are doing when they make statements like all men are pigs.

until such time as men and women find the ability to learn a thing or two about the person they are characterising we will all be calling eachother names and objectifying eachother.

and sleeping alone.

Wednesday, October 03, 2007



so, the most powerful element of professional cycling is a group of people who arbitrarily decide who will and will not be tested and how and when they will be tested and so on.

my solution is to allow them to take as much of the stuff as they want to.

beacause they do anyway.

trust me.

these people perform one of the most arduous feats known to man, and so any help the can get is welcomed without regard for repercussions.

but then the testing committee wouldn`t have a job.


like baseball, football, basketball, swimming and probably soccer...........where strength and recovery from injury is important.

build it, and the bureaucrats will come.

fucking parasites.

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

the sunrise.

the sunrise moved me so entirely profoundly that my thoughts have been consumed with little else since.

an angel told me that i must re-connect with the universe, and she was right.

everything that has happened since has been on purpose and perfect and complete.

so much so that i have had little to say here.

my faith has been restored.

to be continued.............