Saturday, April 07, 2007

for bill.

since i was six years old i have known, without reservation, that the words of men are hollow and frightened.

hollow from lack of love and knowledge of the divine, and frightened by the fragility of the intellect.

when i began to speak of love and open up to it myself then my fear went away.

nothing to do with university or who knows more than anyone else.

i know fuck all.

i just feel more than most.

when i think i am wrong. when i act i am right.........every time.


BBC said...

When I started paying attention, and feeling, is when I learned that others really didn't.

It's just a game to them. Maybe a game that they were taught so they don't know any different. But it's still just a game.

To feel more than others is to just suffer more pain it seems.

It's true, chicks like assholes with money, feeling doesn't matter a lot unless it's wrapped in a pretty package and cost you a lot.

Yup, you can buy love, or some sick semblance of it.

No thanks, I'll stick with not having a woman and just taking care of my own needs because they are few.

I like talking to women, I like the idea of what they should be, I don't like what they have become.

I'm going camping. Take care, good luck.

JLee said...

"I just feel more than most"
I can relate to that...and I don't ever want to change it. :)

dr.alistair said...

well bill, it`s the suffering that makes us grow apparently.

i am learning to accept my lot and realise that we are all just the way we are.

jlee, i have to agree that i wouldn`t want it any other way either.

i couldn`t imagine not being able to feel like i do. it would be like losing my eyesight or not being able to run....

BBC said...

What do you want to bet that if Jlee and her hubby broke up that she would want the house and everything else she can get her hands on?

I'm just making a point.

Hey, you know any good hookers? Never met a hooker I didn't like. At least they are honest, well the ones I've known where anyway.

dr.alistair said...

bill, i have had a few bad experiences with women. four or maybe five total. i can`t generalise that to include all of female humanity.
if i thought that way i may as well fall on my sword now.

for centuries women have been treated as property by men and so now that lawyers have got the new laws to feather thier nests with and women are on the offensive we are now suffering as they did.

this isn`t a justification for behaviour. merely a reason.

men and women and children are being victimised by laws and lawyers and judges who see the conflict as a center of profit.

welcome to the new feudalism.

same as the old one.......

dr.alistair said...

and hookers? cold enterprise.

frosty said...

Just accept the fun of it all..............don,t remarry.


dr.alistair said...

frosty, marriage, where the hell did that come from?

i`m barely out of the frying pan........

BBC said...

I didn't really expect you to allow my last comment mentioning Jlee. But whatever.

As for hookers, maybe you haven't had much personal experiences with them, good ones anyway, not the ones on drugs.

They are not cold, they are good women making their way in life the best they can.

I've only used the services of a couple of them, and it was many years ago, but it was great sex with someone that was a friend at the moment, and that is what we want anyway, and you know it.

Don't knock what you haven't experienced.

dr.alistair said...

ok bill, i know one thing with absolute certainty. you didn`t mean the comment about jlee to be don`t know her.

i know another thing with absolute certainty.

i cannot seperate sex from some emotional connection that i find only comes over time, therefore the hooker game would never work for me.

and to use the "don`t knock it until you`ve tried it" doesn`t reason well bill, because when you apply it to things you don`t like you feel the same way.

have you shot anyone or stolen large sums of money or poisoned the niegbour`s dog for barking?

just examples.

and i`m sure there are hookers who are able to provide comfort and healing and friendship.

i have friends of both sexes that provide that.

and animals.

but i`m not having sex with them.

JLee said...

I have been divorced and walked away with nothing. Not all women are gold diggers. Keep the faith.

dr.alistair said...

thanks jlee, i will.