i met a girl. we like each other. we sit and talk and look at each other and smile. she lives in another town and comes to the coffee shop where i met her with her friends on tuesdays. on tuesdays the shop closes at 10 and we end up talking until 11.30 or so and she can barely keep her eyes open. we had a date last sunday and met at starbucks and unfortunately never left because people kept coming in that i knew and we talked with them. she left abruptly at 10 when the shop closed saying she had to get her brother`s dog.........
i was devestated.
it took me all my training to realise that she didn`t owe me anything and we had a nice time together.
so i saw her again yesterday and we talked again until 11.30 or so and she could barely keep her eyes open and so i said good night and rode off.
i got a hundred yards down the road and siad to myself, to hell with this, and rode back and told her that i wanted to see her again...........and she smiled and said yes.
so now i`m desperately in love. the feeling burns in me. it aches a deep pain in my heart that i`ve never experienced before in my life.
i don`t know what is going on and to be honest it really doesn`t feel all that good unless i`m with her.
i have so much to sort out right now in my personal life and in my business that i can`t see this feeling being useful. the thoughts of her just pierce through everything that i am doing during the day.
a lot of weight to pile onto a woman half my age.
life is cruel sometimes.