when i was young........probably twenty or so.......i had an experience that changed my life. i was lying in bed after a night out. i wasn`t able to find the strength to get up but i was aware of the fact that it was time to rise. i lay there in that state of limbo for a while and then suddenly i was struck by a force that pinned me down. the force was in the form of a beam of light energy that i "saw" coming at me from the horizon. i could see through the walls of the building i lived in and off across the fields as the beam hit. i was pinned down yet felt no fear or concern at all. i must have gone back to sleep because it wasn`t until many months later that i recollected the event at all.
i have meditated on the event, i have asked wise and experienced people about the event, i have meditated some more and i can find no context for the experience except that it is one shared by mystics and shamans throughout history and they all feel that it is a contact with a higher inteligence of some sort.
i will have to accept it as that until someone can suggest an alternative.