i cannot begin to describe what has happened in the last 30 hours.
my mind won`t let me think clearly enough to begin.
so i will begin to type and see where i end up.
i began writing this blog to gain some perspective some months ago as things began to come apart in a phase in my life.
i have faith in my love for myself and for life and that drives me forward each day.
the rewards i have gained as a result of this faith are indescribable.
the disintegration of the family i had worked toward building was painful at first but as i moved forward i realised that things were going to be ok and i was still going to have my children happily in my life.
my business has taken some remarkably positive turns recently that are going to play out substantially in the next few weeks.
so things are good.
so i cannot believe what has happened here.
i am stunned.
bill, brother.................. you warned me.
i don`t even know how to put this into a readable post.
but she`s gone.
no phone calls.
it was as if those few kisses were enough.
i can`t call any more for feeling like a fool.