in the last few hours i have had this odd sensation begin.
i feel a sort of shifting of feeling, from desperation and pain to a sort of calm.
i find it hard to explain.
i got pissed off a few hours ago after a good work-out at the gym with some extra heavy weight.
jump-starting the heart is effective at times.
unfortunately i bit the head off one of the girls at starbucks as a result.
she was ok after i apologised though.
the resulting calm has allowed me to let a few hours go by and not call nancy.
what has happened as a result is the realisation that i don`t need to be treated that way.
this realisation has shored up my resolve to get on with things after being pretty much useless the last 24 hours.
i owe you guys another round of gratitude for your consistant support and advice.
don`t let it go to your heads.
gotcha!
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Monday, February 19, 2007
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"i can`t call any more for feeling like a fool."
At some point in time, about two years ago, I decided to stop allowing them to make me feel like a fool.
If it isn't going well I just cut it off.
the anger has set in...good! Get that junk out and don't drink too much coffee ;)
yeah, a dose of agressive anger really seems to do the trick at times.
i have to be careful to to aim it at others though.
power vs. force is a great little book on how emotions keep us at levels of spiritual developement.
the person who wrote the book said that anger is a way to pull us out of despair.
compassion and understanding pulls us out of anger.
i have been going up and down this ladder for the last few days.
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